I don't like me right now. Maybe it's the Fall, or maybe certain things are just getting old, but I've been depressed, and I don't like it. I feel like shit about myself. I'm lazy and I eat too much. I don't feel active or energetic. I sleep at odd hours and I don't sleep enough. I obviously also think a lot of self-deprecating thoughts.
Not too long ago I was so content with myself and my life. I felt fine, good, and great. Generally I was well. Not a lot in my life had changed since then, except for me. I need to go back to feeling that way again.
Part of it might have to do with the fact that I haven't been doing improv in a few weeks. But my new class is starting tomorrow. I'm not expecting it to solve all my problems, but I hope it makes some difference.
I'm sharing this with you now because I need you to witness me making a promise to myself that I will change, that starting now I'm gonna work my way back to my blissful state. If we talk sometime in the future and I complain about how depressed I am, please remind me that it is within my power to flip the switch, and tell me to stop whining about it already.
